Ever since I started blogging I have debated about how much to share here. It’s been a pretty constant dilemma for me, but especially in the past month or so. My 366 occasionally contains very personal photographs that may hint at what I am going through, but I have generally stayed away from sharing the extremely rough times here. However, with the new year, I have decided that perhaps my photographs will be more genuine if I also share the emotions behind them.
This photograph, although taken quickly at our family dinner this evening, has great importance for me. I didn’t think about the significance until I got home and saw the image on my computer, but it kind of speaks to where I am at right now. As I mentioned above, the past month has had me questioning what to share more than before. Even as I write this now I find myself hesitating and deleting things just to rewrite them again. You see dear readers, a little over a month ago I called off my engagement (and relationship). It was the most difficult decision I have ever had to make, and even though I know it was the right thing it has been an extremely difficult journey. It has taken a while for me to be able to handle questions about it, and to be able to openly talk about it, but I think I am finally there. So, back to the photograph at hand. For me, this is a reminder that it is a new year, and that there is light at the end of the tunnel so to speak; a glimmer of hope that is getting stronger.
I have had this idea in my head for quite a while, and finally got around to it.
I seem to be stuck on flames at the moment for some reason. I really want to incorporate these into a self-portrait at some point, but I’m not quite sure how yet.
2/28 – We got a little bit of an ice storm last night, and our power went out as soon as I walked in the door after getting home from work. It ended up being extremely nice having a night off from my computer and electronics in general. If it wasn’t for my 365 I would probably try to make it a regular thing.