I have decided, as of tonight, that I am going to start back up my prayer journal. I used to be so good about writing in it every night, but then I got busy I guess, and just forgot to write in it. I have been stressing out a lot lately, and I realized tonight that I need to give up those worries to God. He controls everything, and he will provide for me, so I shouldn’t be stressing and worrying. Now I know that starting back up regular, formal prayer is not going to magically take away my worry, but it is a step, which is what I need to do. I need to begin to trust God in every aspect of my life, and in order to do that I need to start voicing my worries to him.
I have been fairly stressed and anxious about the future and things like that lately. I know that I shouldn’t be, because my future is in the hands of the Creator. But it is so hard to completely give up that control. I hadn’t used textures in a while, but decided that it would be appropriate for this picture to give a sense of nostalgia.
Today is a day of a bunch of random thoughts. So, prepare yourself if you choose to read on.
I wish leaves could stay this bright green color year round. I love it more than I can explain.
I love when I take a ton of pictures for the day, and when going through to select one to edit, one just immediately jumps out at me and I get super excited about it.
Earlier today I was thinking about my photographs, and I started getting really frustrated. I was sick of taking pictures of normal, every day things. I wanted something exciting and beautiful and extraordinary. I was feeling totally uninspired and almost didn’t want to take a picture today. But then on the drive home from school the clouds were stunning, and i walked out in my front yard, and looked up, and saw this. And I was completely satisfied with taking pictures of “mundane” things, because, maybe it’s just me, but this isn’t so mundane. I think it is pretty darn incredible and beautiful. It is incredible how God (yes, I give all credit to him) gives me inspiration when I need it the most.
Sorry about the long “rant” of sorts, it needed to come out.
Oh, and this is late because my school was playing Avatar for free in the student center. I couldn’t pass that up.
I have a tendency to think too much. And about too many things (often at once). The past few days I have been doing a lot of thinking and its just overwhelming me and giving me some not so happy realizations. Like questioning if I am in the right major, and what kind of teacher I will be, and my photography skills, and if I am fulfilling my purpose. All sorts of things. But, I know that I just need to trust the One who has it all laid out for me.