Ever since I started blogging I have debated about how much to share here. It’s been a pretty constant dilemma for me, but especially in the past month or so. My 366 occasionally contains very personal photographs that may hint at what I am going through, but I have generally stayed away from sharing the extremely rough times here. However, with the new year, I have decided that perhaps my photographs will be more genuine if I also share the emotions behind them.
This photograph, although taken quickly at our family dinner this evening, has great importance for me. I didn’t think about the significance until I got home and saw the image on my computer, but it kind of speaks to where I am at right now. As I mentioned above, the past month has had me questioning what to share more than before. Even as I write this now I find myself hesitating and deleting things just to rewrite them again. You see dear readers, a little over a month ago I called off my engagement (and relationship). It was the most difficult decision I have ever had to make, and even though I know it was the right thing it has been an extremely difficult journey. It has taken a while for me to be able to handle questions about it, and to be able to openly talk about it, but I think I am finally there. So, back to the photograph at hand. For me, this is a reminder that it is a new year, and that there is light at the end of the tunnel so to speak; a glimmer of hope that is getting stronger.
I have had this idea in my head for quite a while, and finally got around to it.
I seem to be stuck on flames at the moment for some reason. I really want to incorporate these into a self-portrait at some point, but I’m not quite sure how yet.
The title of this is somewhat ironic for me right now, since not much is clear at the moment. With my critique coming up in less than a week I decided tonight that I am scrapping my originally idea and starting from nothing. I have no clue what to do for my project, and it has been wearing down on me all day. Which is why I have yet another simple, night-time candle shot. Tomorrow I am getting up early to drive around and just shoot in hopes of finding inspiration, so at the very least I will have something different for my 365.
It snowed yesterday!! Snow is quite possibly my favorite thing ever. I don’t think I could survive a winter without it. I could just sit and watch it snow and do nothing else and be perfectly content. I felt like a silly little girl while walking to class in it because I couldn’t stop smiling. There is just something about snow that immediately makes me smile, calms me down, and makes me incredible joyful. There is nothing else like it that has the same effect on me. Naturally when it snows I have a hard time putting down my camera, and so yesterday I asked Whitney if she would model for me out in the snow. I wasn’t quite successful at showing just how much it was snowing, but I am still very happy with a lot of the pictures I took.