I wandered outside this evening to take pictures of the leaves still hanging from my trees, but then looked down and noticed how wonderful my skirt looked with the sun and yellow leaves beneath it. These pictures just make me happy, which I needed.
And I couldn’t decide so here is the runner-up:
Now I don’t normally do things like this; I usually just keep these things to myself, but I am feeling like I need to do some slight explaining, as well as some venting.
I have been going through some things with my photography lately. First, I have been frustrated with myself that I used to be obsessed (maybe that isn’t the right word, because it was a good thing) with getting my 365 done and posted on time. But lately I just haven’t seemed to care as much about getting it in on time. I still take the picture yes, but more often than not I don’t seem to put all that much effort into it. This project is important to me, so I don’t know why I can’t seem to stay on top of it anymore. However, as of tonight, I am re-dedicating myself to this project. I WILL get my picture posted every night unless something major comes up (that makes me nervous to make that promise…but here we go).
The second big thing that has been frustrating me, is from earlier this week. I was venting to Elliot about how I was just down about photography in general, and he asked me a very simple, but important two questions: “Why do you like photography? Why do you want to take pictures?” And I didn’t (and still don’t) have a good answer, or rather any answer for him. I used to have such a good explanation for why I wanted to be a photographer, but since I have gotten into the more commercial side, with weddings and stuff with my internship, I have seemed to lost sight of why I wanted to become a photographer in the first place. Now I realize that it is inevitable that my vision will change after 5 years of taking pictures, but it makes me sad, and angry, that I don’t have a solid answer as to why I want to take pictures. So, my goal within the next week, is to sit down and write out why I love photography. And I hope that this can get the firing burning inside me again.